Even in the times when my faith seems too small for the needs of life... He is holding me and growing me.
When I think of Sarah and Abraham, and how in their old age they conceived not only a child, but the child who would lead to future generations of children, I am so encouraged.
If He did it for Abraham and Sarah, He will do it for me.
I heard David Jeremiah on this subject a few weeks ago, it was spot on.
Sarah laughed at the promise of God that she would have a child... until she did. All the while, God had chosen Sarah to perform His miracle. He built her faith as she went through life, years later, she delivered Isaac.
I see myself in this story.
When I would doubt and almost laugh at the future, as Sarah did, based on where she was, and on where I am... God says NO... I am still at work, and I have many promises yet to be fulfilled through your life.
Did Sarah deserve it?
Do I deserve it?
Did it ever depend on either Sarah or Sonja?
It's so amazing when God gives us a view into His heart.
God understands me when He sees that I desire more faith, deeper faith, and He sends a reminder to my heart of someone He carefully chose so long ago, Sarah.
As He chose Sarah, He has also chosen Sonja... and you.
Do you ever get encouraged by the fact that God chose (and chooses) ordinary WAY less than perfect people to fulfill His plans? I sure do. If they were all saints that never had a doubt or made a mistake, it would never make God as real to me as it does when their stories are just like mine.
It always goes back to who God is, not who I am,
He continues to do His thing in me... in spite of me.