"Be not weary in well doing, for in due season ye shall reap, if ye faint not."
Those are the exact words of this verse in the King James we memorized as kids in our home.
Can I tell you how many times through the years I have claimed that verse?
I'm claiming it right now too. There are seasons in our lives that make us weary. It can be for many different reasons. I've been in the middle of one and here is what I know.
During the gray periods, the temptation to wring my hands and introspect to the point of distraction, is a very real one for me. What can I do? How can I fix this? What if this or that or blah blah blah blah blah.....
Yet, right on the heels of all of that, is the anger that my feelings one more time are getting in the way of standing straight up in faith and saying okay Lord, this is NOT from you.
I've written about the 2 R's before. They are key to how I choose to let life and my circumstances affect me. These 2 R's were woven throughout my dad's life. He saw early on that those 2 words changed his course, for the good or bad.
Satan will use the stuff that is our particular weak area to defeat us. Don't ever underestimate his ability to hammer away and try to find a place to plant his seeds of doubt and discouragement.
Very quickly I realize that I could go either way with these temptations of the spirit. I also know that pursuing areas of gray and allowing them to pull me down, is not from God. So the choice to quickly refuse them and claim God's strength and stand in faith is always my best course..
When the gray fog begins to creep in and affect our lives, we have options. It amazes me sometimes that I can be so victorious and alive and strong in my heart and then be knocked down so quickly and begin to 'murmur'.
The children of Israel are very close to my heart. I thought I was so beyond their ability to forget God's goodness from yesterday. A new set of trials reminds me that their manna needed to be fresh every morning. So does mine.
And it IS!
Over and over again I am finding that I need to practice what I preach! I can't tell others about how God changes everything, and not practice the same principles of faith based on who He is.
So... one more time... I choose Jesus. I choose to stand and to trust and to move forward with Him. See those gray clouds up there? I am also seeing the rays of light just beyond them. :)